oh what a drag! oh what a backwards scheme

hailstormpixie @ 2007-01-19T18:53:00

2007-01-19T23:50:57Z

My poem was published my poem was published my poem was published!!!! And I'm going to be a judge in the finals. I think. I hope. This is too much.

hailstormpixie @ 2006-12-10T22:41:00

2006-12-11T02:41:43Z

i cannot wait to be sunbathing in the grass in front of the eiffel tower! ahh i am so happy

hailstormpixie @ 2006-10-18T19:53:00

2006-10-18T23:47:56Z

just the smell of the summer can make me fall in lovvvvee.

today was soooooooooooooooo good.

hailstormpixie @ 2006-07-15T19:51:00

2006-07-15T23:46:50Z

HAH jasper is fat. life is good. "wanna go make out in the park?" ew hell no fatty

got a job at haagen dazs it'sreally fun. who remembers daniel arcos or what not? I work with his girlfriend, i actually love her...

Summer school is alright, a lot of cliques but that's how it is. I like aleks siveski a lot, I kind of want him to be my best friend. Actually I completely do.

Watched scarface, I love that movie. Things are good...But things always dramatically change to really awful and stressful and then back to being good. That's how life goes. I have to manage stress better. I love health. :) Except it's making me scared of every little thing in the world...

hailstormpixie @ 2006-05-09T20:51:00

2006-05-10T00:42:57Z

so um i mentioned to my mothers friend (who used to be an admissions person @ barnard and columbia) that i'm only taking one AP next year, she basically gave me a look of horror.

hailstormpixie @ 2006-02-28T21:29:00

2006-03-01T02:31:48Z

i also love how im trying to fucking practice ahimsa and plan on getting that tattooed on my wrist when here i am acting like a complete fool

hailstormpixie @ 2005-12-20T15:50:00

2005-12-20T20:51:28Z

I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO STUDY FOR FUCKING CHUDNOVSKY'S TEST

THANK GOD FOR THE STRIKE THIS WEEK WILL GO BY FAST.

although i missed a french and a chem test which is kind of fucking my grades up i think. plus mr. o keeps calling my house 4 times a day thinking i cut school or something.

funny how each year i found a teacher to fall in love with and they both start with "O"
(ogrady omoloju)

hailstormpixie @ 2005-06-20T23:48:00

2005-06-21T03:46:27Z

that show was the greatest fucking thing that's ever happened to me, more specifically the encore, more specifically because the encore was "breakthrough, world at large, dramamine, doin' the cockroach". more specifically because viv and i yelled dramamine and they started to play dramamine.

one bad note is that i saw fucking jasper for the first time in 6 months and i flipped out but whatever man that show was fucking incredible and im wearing my new shirt all the time and never taking it off.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-06-20T08:54:00

2005-06-20T12:55:02Z

yo so its 9 am and im sitting writing this. i have a chorus audition at school! ahhh. extremely nervous. sort of. eliza and i are back to being friends, so thats good. i went to her country house this weekend and let me just say it was a fabulous way to start the summer. although we ate so much crap i might have gained 200 pounds. but it was worth it. we watchd these movies: Tart, the in crowd, and Spun. All pretty good, in my book, i love spun.

oh god i really have nothing interesting to write about. frankie is superb as usual, the sweetest person in the world. tonight is modest mouse so my life is complete

AND I CANT DESCRIBE HOW FUCKING EXCITED I AM

hailstormpixie @ 2005-06-13T12:24:00

2005-06-13T16:46:23Z

so this weekend was really good although i thought it wouldnt be because of the whole eliza fiasco. on friday i was really upset after school just because of everything but anna is actually the best person in the entire world and made everything better. i know how gay that sounds but shes such an amazing friend/person even though we get into petty fights all the time, they dont matter. then i stayed home for awhile and met frankie outside because he was really fucked up and didnt feel well. so i took care of him kind of, not relaly he was basicallly fine i just gave him company, and then he came over and we took a nap and it was wonderful.

we got ready to go out and we met up with anna on 86th and we bought georgi and anna got her usual smirnoff. i thought it would be awkward with anna but it wasnt at all which is another reason why i love that girl. we walked to central park and pretty much walked to the east side and got lost, then met up with alex sophia ariana laura giddy and nick at the great lawn and we drank and looked up at the stars and sang sublime.

frankie was alone with like all freshman giirls i felt bad, so i waited with him for maurice and miles and they smoked a blunt and i talked to ashley about everything going on with her.

then i was going to meet everyone at the promenade but frankie and i decided to go to my house and he stayed until 1 or so. my mom is mad chill, she walks in and like winks at us and says "so what happened to the movie, hmm? alright im going to bed" and she left us alone for like 2 hours and then frankie left and i love him.

saturday morning nothing interesting. i shower and forget to return my moms library books, dashiell ditches me, frankie meets me after buying acid downtown and walks me to 101st sal and carmines to meet anna and dashiell to go to the movies. hes so sweet. we got to the movies and see lords of dogtown which was alright, probably shit compared to dogtown and z boys but i havent seen that. lords of dogtown was just ridiculous in some parts and the end was really sad but totally fictional. the guys in the movie were beautiful however so it was all good and i kind of melted each time one of them was on the screen, which was all the time. i was ina crazy mood and took a lot of pictures and this really amazing one of dashiell which i forced him to put on myspace.

then i went to sophia and arianas house with alex and allegra to sleep over and holy shit i forgot how much i love them all and love sleeping over at the collas' house. we just listened to insanely good music and chilled and talked about everything. and about allegra being raped by sea turtles. ahahahahha it was the funniest thing ever. allegra check your myspace asap.

then sunday i went home and did nothing. i switched my earring from a stud to a ring which was probably a horrible idea as i had only had the new piercing for 2 weeks and didnt wait the usual 8 weeks until i should change it. whatever, ill clean it more often and hopefully i wont die.

im listening to david bowie's greatest hits and i had no idea 1) how fucking INCREDIBLE it is 2) that one of his songs was in moulin rouge. i actually am inlove with this cd and im listening to it all the time now. i borrowed really good cds from sophia and ariana, this one, bob dylan's greatest hits, dido, abbey road, motorcycle diaries soundtrack, blow soundtrack (which is the coolest cd design ever), and school of rock soundtrack. i love david bowie!

today was pretty good, its deathly hot however. i have a major final next period, a test in bio the period after, a huge music/global final on tuesday and then iM DONE!!! until chorus audition and bio regents like a week after, but whatever.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-06-07T22:40:00

2005-06-08T02:46:39Z

so bio sat 2's were really hard but after all that hard work i'm not going to cancel it. meg got a 630, she told me, and meg is a genius and if she can live with that so can i. the weekend after was pretty fun. friday stayed home all day, saturday hung out with the girls at p&w and met christie who i like a lot and is gorgeous, then we planned to go to audreys but it didnt work so we went to allegras who really didnt want anyone over at all so i felt bad and then linus&co were being dicks so allegra got really upset and we all left to the park and i was exhausted, my 40 was so bad, so i ran into the grass with frankie and disappeared for like 3 hours and then went home and didnt sleep over at alex's like i had planned. frankie spent the night (well, basically) hahaha it was hilarious, he was hiding under the covers when my mom came in. i cannot believe i got away with that. sunday i went with audrey, eliza and christie to beacon's closet and sold clotehs and then i bought some amazing 7 shorts for 20 dollars (/free since it was store credit from the clothes) and the Sad Sappy Sucker record. didnt see dashiell all weekend. i actually am in love with that boy he's so funny and great. hating jordan at the moment. monday was good i wore my shorts and saw battle of the bands and smoked cigarettes, which i cant do at all anymore because i have a singing audition on the 16th at 930 am. battle of the bands was good, i love baby cakes. some freshman asian band won however because all their parents came and applauded like mad. baby cakes and hooters definitely should have won. perhaps the blue oyster cult cover band heh, i love mark. mmmmmmmm i am so tired. i have a french final tomorrow and im just oging to study in school. fuck fuck fuckin A. i am screwed. the lab test is on friday so is my global test god fucking dammit i suck at school. faina told me the lab test was easy, the day befoer im just going to read over everything. not make that shit lab study sheet ms moss wants us to do. ms moss is such a bitch, we have a test on friday, a test on monday, and tehn the regents like 4 days later. so its like 3 tests in the span of a week and a half. don't forget hw everyday, which i dont feel like i should do since i learned all of it studying for the sat's. mother fucker. i was in a bad mood today. hopefully today should be good, dorot party i love food.

AHHHH

2005-06-04T01:52:49Z

AFTER STUDYING ALL DAY, I IMPROVED MY BIOLOGY SAT II PRACTICE TEST SCORE 140 POINTS.

FROM A 600 TO A 740

OH BABY, LIFE IS GOOD

hailstormpixie @ 2005-06-02T21:26:00

2005-06-03T01:22:37Z

i LOVVVEEEE frankie, he is so sweet and so hot and i can't even handle it

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-31T12:29:00

2005-05-31T16:37:10Z

i broke my toe yesterday. or something along that line. so i've been limping like an old crazy woman for the entire day and it hurtssss. i think i aced my math test, which i only studied for for like 1 hour, from 11-12. i only aced it because mr. rockfeld is the man and gave me most of the answers. i've calculated that if i get an 80 on the final, i still have a 92 test average since he drops the lowest grade. yesss.

the pants i'm wearing make me look like a midget. plus i'm lopsided because i limp so badly. it's pretty funny.

frankie is so great. i was going to stay home today and he was going to cut class to help me study biology for the sat 2's. but i would feel bad if he cut class. it didnt work out anyway. he's incredible and so good for me. guys are never genuinely nice to me. he also sends me the cutest text messages in the world.

right now, i'm really happy but i'm scared since it won't last for too much longer.

caroline is going to buy me that silver clutch i found downtown hopefully today or tomorrow. how great is that girl????

i need to get the modest mouse cd i lent to dashiell during lunch back. ill get it tomorrow, i want him to hear it. maia's "modest mouse oldies". 21 DAYSSSSSS

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-30T02:38:00

2005-05-30T06:37:32Z

i had such a great day today. i did some homework in the morning, and around 3 i had lunch with dashiell and jordan at ollies. then they came over and we goofed around until about 6 once they left and it was really really fun. then i did my lab and got ready and met up with kia and audrey and nick and we went to the park with madddd people and chelsea was there and vedran and it was incredible. i loved the group of people we were with. then we met up again with dashiell and danny, this time, and talked for a few. then i went home and i didnt like what was going on with frankie and i.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-29T14:16:00

2005-05-29T18:19:09Z

today i think i'm going to go shopping. i really really want that silver clutch i found at monk down near 4th street,

yesterday was really bad. i left at around 6 to meet viv and i thought we would meet up with other people but we didnt. we went to whole foods to get dinner and i spent 10 fucking dollars on food, then went to samsung and that place is AMAZING the electronics are so cool and futuristic. then we went outside and smoked a cigarette in the rain and it was nice but then viv's phone broke somehow so we had to run around in the rain to find a verizon store and no one would meet us and all my stuff got ruined because of the rain. sophia and ariana invited me to see hte holy girl but i had spent all my money on food so i couldnt go. i really wanted to see them. kia said she would call me this morning to go to beacon's closet but she never did.

then frankie came over and stayed until 11 and i was exhausted and it was really nice and made my day better. then i went to sleep.

now i'm going to do global and study french, and tomorrow do all my biology and study math. maybe i'll do some bio tonight too. i really need to fucking study for the SAT'S i'm actually not prepared at all and i'm so stupid and upset about how inconsistant i am with doing things i say i'm going to do. i need to take a shower.

I'M GETTING MY EARS PIERCED MORE TODAYYYY YESSS

2005-05-27T16:32:47Z

i have a headache but life is good. frankie came over yesterday it was nice. we watched napoleon dynamite. i hardly did any homework, but enough to not get caught. my dad came over yesterday unannounced and fell asleep. he really doesn't breathe well. it was sad. i tried to be nice to him after realizing i was being a huge asshole. i went to bed at 11, after showering and everything, and fell asleep listening to music. i had a great sleep and i woke up the moment before my alarm rang. and i was so awake. it was really cool and peaceful. it's really warm outside. i have a lot to do this weekend, biology-wise. eliza got in trouble with mr. liu for cutting 5th. he really is so terrifying. now i'm in research lit. i had a good conversation with dashiell about his band during lunch and i wore my new sunglasses which i love. it was sunny and beautiful. i love the sun. i also really like those Zen things, which are like ipods. theyre smaller and cheaper. the onlyproblem is it's hard to kind of browse through things. ipods are a little easier and simpler and so chic! i miss my ipod. this asian kid next to me is looking at xanga and it basically has anime porn all over it. yes!

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-26T12:26:00

2005-05-26T16:28:12Z

so my keyboard is broken and i cant go online.

my journal entries are so meaningless. i don't know why i have this thing, it gets me into trouble and then when i do get some sort of recognition i start to freak out and edit everything i say. so really, it's not what i'm actually feeling or thinking. just random shit that happened in my day.

he's a weird monkey. kinda punky.

2005-05-25T22:50:02Z

i am embrassed beyond belief.

today was alright. i wore a sweatshirt i felt kind of gross. it was rainy outside. i love mr. rubensky, music is so fun. frankie waited for me, it was sweet. math is alright i understand it, mr. rockfeld is cool now. global blah blah review. extra credit on my test, score! i love mr. ogrady he is so cute. he sat on his glasses today. LUNCH cd analyzation with dashiell. research lit, finished my powerpoint pretty much, did graphing, met dashiell for like 10 minutes outside to finish the cds. french boring i hate eliza for not coming. i was actually able to live through bio, i think bio is my favorite class people-wise (and of course academically). i love kenny. "you're like the sisters of the traveling pants!" i took pictures of my class/myself/ms. moss the whole period.

after school i got in a big fight with joanna but then we were fine in like 20 minutes and dorot was really fun. we had great conversation, and then we talked about all the guys we know and it was really interesting and funny. then i went home and had dinner and was mortified. now i think i'm going to wash the dishes for my mom and do some chores because i feel bad about our fight last night,

even though it was completely her fault.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-24T22:02:00

2005-05-25T01:58:55Z

i hate my life i hate my mom i hate my dad i hate school i really just want to break down and cry.

on another note, one tree hill was so crazy that it made me feel better about everything going on with me but also really depressed at the same time.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-21T19:45:00

2005-05-21T23:57:52Z

YESTERDAY WAS SO GOOD. after school i came home and studied for the BIO sat 2's (kind of).

then i met up with audrey alex eliza and caroline. apparently there's mad drama with joanna. we met up with mark later who i adore and is the coolest person in the world. then we met up with aaron who is also very cool. it was such a chill group of people. it was so fun to be with them, we were just laughing forever and ever. we were making fun of eliza for not watching the oc and made her believe marissa died and trey tried to rape ryan. oh eliza. then we met up with delta boys and natty was trying to be nice to me. i kept remembering jasper when i was walking on the block of 89th. it was bad. then we went to the monument, where i saw danny dashiell and jordan. jordan and dashiell tricked me into believing they broke into a trailer and talked this guy for awhile. and i believed them for a long time. and then they made fun of me and i hate them.

then i went to margots. we left at like 11 45 to go rent a movie, rented mullholand drive and requiem for a dream and the guy there was being so rediculous because they were both R rated. we bought dulce de lece frozen yogurt. went to her house, ate ice cream and grapes and watched requiem for a dream which is my ultime favorite movie and is so disturbing. on the way to the movie palce and back we just listened to modest mouse and sang really loudly. and we were sober, for the entire night. and it was so fun and i love margot. and i love modest mouse. she lent me her modest mouse cds which i'm so happy for. she's making me a distillers mix. margot and i are so similar, we both make a million modest mouse mixes and are obsessed with them and we both make hole, nirvana, and the distillers mixes which was such a coincidence. she gave me some pants to, one pair which i'm wearing tonight. i love her last night was so fun!

right now everyones at nick's surprise party and i have nothing to do. i'm really excited for my sleepover with allegra. i dont know how i'm going to see frankie tonight. i dont feel like being anti social and just being with him all night but i think that's what he wants. i just want to see him.

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-19T21:33:00

2005-05-20T01:32:28Z

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

THE OC WAS SO FUCKING INTENSE

I HAVE A'S IN 5 OUT OF 9 SUBJECTS
B'S IN GLOBAL AND FRENCH, GYM AND RESEARCH LIT

I'M KIND OF IN LOVE WITH FRANKIE

I LOVE THE WORLD

things were better when i was nothin but a sweater

2005-05-18T19:13:04Z

last night i got in a screaming/breaking things fight with my mom. because 1) she told me that eliza's parents owe her 300$ so we have no money until monday. 2) i got angry because who the hell is she to burden me with something like this. how am i just supposed to go to french class and talk to eliza like nothing is the matter? i mean it isn't eliza's fault but it's going to be so awkward. that's adult business, and she even has the guts to ask me what to do about it? and to complain about it?? i don't care if i overreacted, what the hell is she doing?

basically now she's threatening to make me move to california or send me away to that place or take me out of bronx science because i'm ruining my future by staying home. what a fucking moron. she also "fucking hates" living with me because i "destroy everything" (i.e. the chair joe broke at my party, me losing my bag, and breaking a necklace and a plate). she also found two smirnoff caps from like a month ago and just left them on the kitchen counter.

i didn't go to school today because i didnt want to see eliza (not in a mean way or anything) or deal with that . i didnt study for my french test. i need more sleep. and i knew i would be in a bad mood and smoke like 5 cigarettes so i also didn't want to do that.

frankie kind of got me in a better mood because he called me right after the fight but i felt bad for burdening him with anything like that.

i think i'm going to be even more stressed out missing school than i would be going. maybe not. but i probably have so much work. i'm not going to be able to understand my math homework, i've missed every day in music since we've been learning about the romantic era. one day i miss global i get fucked. english FUCK WE'RE LEARNING ABOUT THE FUCKING TEST ON THURSDAY FUCK FUCKF UCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR IT fuck fuck fuck fuck. research lit i probably missed a pop quiz or something. i need to work on the fucking powerpoint. french i missed the test. i also fucking missed double global. fuck fuck fuck i hate my life so fucking much

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-17T18:38:00

2005-05-17T22:33:56Z

DOWNLOAD MACHINE GUN BY BAND OF GYPSYS RIGHT FUCKING NOW

god damn do i love music

hailstormpixie @ 2005-05-14T11:42:00

2005-05-14T15:43:01Z

i hate everything. this school is turning me into a smoker. yesterday i lost my new bag, which had my entire life in it. thank god not anything REALLY expensive. but all my work for global that i need to write my paper was in it. so was caroline's. so was all my make up. my school id. my metrocard. my library card. not to mention it was a new bag.

i guess all that stuff is replacable but i was really, really upset. i just don't understand what i could have done to deserve something like that. i dont understand how it could just disappear.

i'm excited to see battle of the bands today. i can use my 50 euro i didn't spend in france and replace the things i lost. and i can not eat lunch for a week and save money to get my ears pierced. i owe eliza 10 dollars too.

i love eliza and caroline and alex and anna.